PURELY CLEANSE

Purely Cleanse 

Her heart was tied down by lies; lies that told her she was not worthy, that she was not seen or deeply and truly loved by the Father despite her brokenness. She lived a life striving for perfection and fame, but she was not looking for it in the right places, it was all out of pride and fear of not being known. She saw herself through the worlds eyes and the world told her that she had to try harder to be loved. That she had to be louder to be heard, and that she had to be wanted to be purposeful. The world told her not to trip or there would be no grace and that she would have to work for forgiveness because it never comes easy. She was aimlessly looking in the wrong places for contentment and it would fill her for a little bit, but it would eventually fade away and the people that she put all her hope in would would fail her at times. She would then be left with more un-contentment than she started with. She continued to run the race but she would continue to fall short. She was carrying too many chains to get there, as much as she tried or she thought…little did she know she was already there, she just had to turn around. Little did she know that she had a purpose and she was deeply loved. She was already seen as blameless and radiant. She just had to be shown the truth. 

The Lord brought her to this spacious place. As she was there she was taken to a beach. There she sat in the shade of beautiful palms and looked out at the very peaceful ocean, the waves were calm and the water was a deep deep blue and it continued farther than the eye could see. The ocean was vast and never-ending and it felt so safe. As she looked up the shore she could see a figure walking along the sand toward her, but as the figure got closer she could see that he was familiar and that it was Jesus walking toward her. she asked him what the water was and he replied, “Its grace, that’s how much grace I have for you” …

She was then brought into another vision. she was now standing in the hall way of her childhood house where she grew up for the majority of her life.  She stood there looking at the room that she had spent so many hours dreaming about the future. It seemed very inviting, it was all organized and the sun illuminated the room. She went into the room and as she went in, fear started to creep in. She turned around and looked into the closet that was next to the door. The closet was so dark and festering with creatures; lies and whispers were flowing out of the closet. As hard as the girl tried to figure out what was in the closet and tried to see past the darkness, she couldn’t. As hard as she tried to fix it and look at what was feeding into all this, she became even more blind to it all. Fear and confusion started to creep in because of her inability to fix the problem. She turned around to see where the light was coming from and she realized that God was standing behind her. She asked him, “where did these lies come from?” All the sudden she could see that people were piling into the room behind the back wall of the closet. They all started to speak and the darkness in the closet became more intense and the festering became worse. The girl said, “HOW DO I FIX THIS??”… 

The Lord brought her back to the beach, but this time she was in the water. FULLY SUBMERGED. Almost drowning. It was not scary because Jesus was there too. “You are drowning in my grace & love and there is nothing you can do to get away from it.” 

She was still worried about the closet, so she was brought back into room and she asked again, “God how do I fix this?” She turned around and He was crouched down with his arms open, waiting for her to come to him. “She said I can’t. this mess is too big, I need to fix it first” But He chuckled and replied, “What mess? I don’t see a mess.” The girl began to explain but he interrupted and said “stop worrying about that, I want your heart and that’s holding you back. I only want you to come to me. I can help you.” She went to him and He took her hand and together they began to clean out the closet. They first cleaned out the junk, He started by taking out the lie that was labeled “I am not worthy” and replaced it with the promise that said “You are so Worthy, so worthy of my love”. He took the lie that said, “I am Shame” and replaced it with “You are righteous and blameless. You are seen as RADIANT” He took the lie that said, “conformity & defined by the world” and he replaced it with “You were created in my image, You are a daughter of the King. YOU ARE MORE” The lie that said “Its my fault” was replaced with “Its not your fault because I paid it all, you are forgiven and you are drowning in my GRACE” and then they began to paint the walls white. The closet began to shine!! Once they had gotten all the shelves put up, God began to place items of silver and gold into the closet and they stepped back and marveled at the work and he continued to give her promises.  

 

 

This was a vision/ encounter with the Lord that I had about a week ago. I have been dealing with a lot of shame but had kind of told myself that I had already dealt with it and that I obviously don’t need to let it keep bothering me because I know in my head that I’m worthy and that the Lord had brought me here for such a pronoun purpose. BUT I didn’t believe it in my heart, there was still so much pain and shame attached to my heart and lies that my heart still believed. As much as I tried to get myself to believe that, I couldn’t because it was not something that I could do on my own. I had to surrender it completely to the Lord and invite him to my darkest closet that was hidden far way, and let him help me search. 

Jesus on the shore bringing me into the ocean of grace and God helping me rebuild my closet. This is where I will rest and rejoice because the Lord has transformed me and has brought me out of the lies that I was believing. He told me that I am WORTHY, LOVED & that it is not my fault. I am free from it. I no longer have to live out of works, because he grace is sufficient and I’m already there. All I have to do is say yes and accept it and it’s given to me.  He promised me that he has big plans for my future & that through my actions lives will be transformed because of my yes to follow. 

 

This whole week has just been confirming this encounter and teaching me more and more about what he is teaching me in this season.  

“In the large house there are articles not only of gold and silver, but also of wood and clay; some for special purposes and some for common use. Those who cleanse themselves from the latter will be instruments for special purposes, made holy, useful to the master and prepared to do any good work.“ 

2 Timothy 2:20-21. 

He is making me Pure (Definition of PURE: unmixed with any other matter, pure gold, free from dust, dirt or taint. Pure spring water. Spotless, stainless, free from harshness or roughness, being in tune, being THUS & no other. Free from what vitiates, weakens or pollutes, containing nothing that does not properly belong. Free from moral fault or guilt. Unmixed. Having exactly the talents or skills needed for a particular role. Absolute, All About, Blooming, Profound, Unconditional, Clean & Complete).  

“My grace is sufficient for you [my loving kindness & my mercy are more than enough — always available — regardless of the situation]; for my power is being perfected [And is completed & shows itself most effectively] in you weakness. Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weakness, so that the power of Christ [May completely enfold me and] may dwell in me.”     

2 CORINTHIANS 12:9 

He has called me to this journey & there are so many things that I am carrying that are not needed, so the Lord is continuing to help me surrender everything and have HIM fill my pack with the things needed for the journey because he’s the only one that can prepare me for all this.  

THANKS GOD.